5 days left

I can't believe this feeling came back. I was so eager to enter working life but when the time comes... I feel that somehow, I'm just someone who was trying to escape from my feelings. Why am I so eager to leave my uni life? Perhaps this is the only thing I keep to myself and unwilling to share. I don't know who will understand my words and my thoughts although most of my friends are smarts enough but just tends not to invade into others world, or not letting others to invade us.

I make myself listened to energetic songs... and forget all emotional self. Alright, I can be emotional but I shouldn't. I have be strong for the people around. I hate being teased or being fool-joked but I have to show that 'its always okay' when someone publicly embarrassed me. As if it worth for suppression.

5 days later, as the threads that hold us really gone loose... All that happened, are they worthy? I'm afraid of finding the answer but I've to convinced that they're all worthy all the time. Indeed, time passes and never it will be reversed. One year later, three years later... will I still be missing you? Perhaps I would shed my tears thinking about us now but what about five years later?

People says, human brain never forget what they had once embraced. There are always ways to recall whatever that had come to past. I'm thus afraid of recalling because they hurt.

'Never forget' everyone says that friends to friends, but that is not the truth that is going on... I'm afraid which is the reason I'm not able to share anymore ever since that day... After this moment, I'm revealing all the previous hidden posts in this blog which jot down what I once felt last time...

And I will still move on and on...